LSR Notes: 10/16/20

9:32 PM

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8:38 PM

My piano playing sucks … I know this.

Yet …

I still enjoy it. Doing it. Creating a sound that makes me feel joy, or even one that scratches the back of your head.

What does this say about me? – nothing.

But it says a lot about the power of music.

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6:58 PM

I am supposed to tell you good things too.

I saw some college kids cleaning the garbage off of 12th AVE today …

I was stunned. I was heartened.

Jesus, through these kids, spoke to me …

He said “they’re not all shit …”

(no, a lot of these young people had great parents)

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6:25 PM

“I’ve read my bible … love is a mess, but it is also wonderful.” – Dr. Freckles

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10:45

Peckinpah gave you plausible tactical scenarios …

Today’s action? – they train you to fail.

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10:09

Remember …

Dumping sewage into the oceans?

(that’s been a government solution since day 1)

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9:52 AM

You walk up to someone 20 years younger than you …

But he looks just like you, almost …

And you say …

“You know your daddy, right?”

“Yes, what the fuck?”

“good …”

(and you walk away)

(Irishman drink …)

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9:16 AM

If you’re a douche bag? – guess why …

BECAUSE YOU ARE A DOUCHE BAG …

Want to change that?

(stop being a douche)

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9:14 AM

Shit birds LOVE to blame drugs for being shit birds.

I did more LSD in October 2017 than most ever should – and it was really badly engineered …

I went crazy, and was a terrible person to folks that did not deserve it.

I CAN’T BLAME THE LSD!

I can take responsibility …

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9:13 AM

Weed does not make you indifferent or cold …

I vape more weed than any other 10,000 people.

Beer does not ruin your heart, and make you callous.

I drink more beer than most.

INDIFFERENCE MAKES YOU INDIFFERENT!

CALLOUSNESS MAKES YOU FUCKING CALLOUS!

Don’t blame beer, weed.

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7:01 AM

I hate thinking about “writing” …

One of my bittersweet memories of 2020 …

My excitement about starting a new project, and then the dread and misery of this wretched dystopia and drowning in it existentially.

Today I will get some beer and weed and I will disassociate.

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6:14 AM

“I am more afraid of Godzilla than I am of COVID-19.” – Dr. Freckles

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5:46 AM

(a conversation from 2034, it’s nearing midnight at checkpoint Zebra in the King County Slave Zone)

“You hear that?”

“Come on man …”

“I’m serious Z’loop … you hear that shit?”

(a loud scream can be heard from the alley)

“You go check on that …”

“FUCK YOU Z’LOOP!”